i like a man in uniform. specifically starfleet uniform. specifically james t kirk
And sometimes you feel sad, but you should know it won’t last. You’re bigger than the sadness. It’s not a canyon you’re slipping into, it’s a small pebble that keeps shaking around your heart. And maybe you need to feel it bang up on your sides for a little while to get some salty sweet tears, but you have to kick the pebble out. Reach in between the tissue and into blood and tell that motherfucker it can’t stay because you don’t need anything more knocking you around. And then let yourself heal. Take a day. I’d even settle for an hour if that’s all you have. Take that time and feel your heart swelling about anything and everything, and know that you can walk forward.
So one time—in the most beautiful middle school time of yahoo music—I got obsessed with pop punk goofy boy bands, and I made a list of the albums I had to go buy next time at was at Best Buy, like Bowling for Soup’s “Take Off Your Pants and Jacket” and Simple Plan’s “No Pads, No Helmets…Just Balls” and then my older brother found my list near the family computer and he confronted me about looking up porn on the internet.
Leave your apartment looking terrible. Walk to the deli and see your usual deli guy’s eyes start to widen at your disheveled appearance. This would’ve horrified you yesterday but today it makes you smile. You’ve decided that everything that made you worry will now make you smile.
Walk with better posture. Order two helpings of dessert. Ask someone to take you to a doctor’s appointment and refuse to feel guilty about it. You would do the same for them so why should you feel like you’re putting anyone out? Stand by your opinion that The Shins are a good band even when you’re friends give you hell over it. This is thrilling. Openly loving The Shins has never felt so liberating.
Tell your father he’s a jerk because he is. Tell your mother that you love her because you do. Don’t tell anyone that you love them if it’s not true, if they don’t deserve it. It’s a privilege to be loved by you. Your emotional slutty days are effectively over."